November 15, 2018
I am now home. Surgery went well. Still waiting for lab results. Will take some time to recover. Very sore!!!!! Glad tumor is gone. It had grown to the size of a gulf ball. I actually think that my breathing is better. My sister Becky came down to help me for a few days. She left yesterday. Lots of tears after she left. Heard snow is on it's way. Guess Steve will have to shovel on his on.
Glad surgery is over. Start back on clinical trials after Thanksgivings. Ugh.. So tired.
Thursday, November 15, 2018
Tuesday, October 30, 2018
10-30-18
I apologize for not writing in my blog
sooner. I have been back and forth to Boston for infusions this last past month and also have seen my lung specialist. My doctors feels that he needs to remove the cancerous tumor that is in my left lung as it has grown a little more. They will be removing the lower left lobe of my lung to do this. I will be going in for surgery the second week of November. There for 4 days and recovery period is 4 to 6 weeks.
I am having a hard time with all of this. I want this tumor to be removed but know I may have some medical issues after surgery as my adrenal gland is no longer working.
I often think of the five stages of grief!
1. DENIAL:
Maybe it isn't cancer... Could they have read my test results wrong???? So many people are afraid of that word cancer and so am I. I will just go for a second opinion. This can't be happening to me.
2. ANGER:
Yes I would admit that I was angry eight years ago when I was first diagnosed with my melanoma AND I
CONTINUE TO BE ANGRY. I have fought my melanoma for eight years and now it has moved to my lung. I have had three treatments. Interferon, keytruda and now continuing with a new clinical trial... I truly wish this terrible disease would go away from my body and leave me alone.
3. BARGAIN:
I promise to exercise, eat healthier foods and take better care of my body. Just give me one more chance.
4. DEPRESSION:
Oh, this is a good one! I have been depressed on and off these last eight years. My doctors have tried to put me on a few medications to help that but I could not tolerate them and I did not like the side effects that these antidepressant were giving me. I try to deal with my health issues on my own. So far so good. Remaining positive and thinking of how fortunate I am to still be here has helped. Another surgery to go. I just have to keep reminding myself that the surgeries are keeping my melanoma at bay.
5. Acceptance: It has been a hard thing to do. You get up in the morning and thank god for another day and go to bed each night and worry about being here another day. I will never accept my cancer and will keep fighting. I have to much to do in my life.. My granddaughter is graduating this year. from high school I WANT TO BE THERE....My son is getting married next year. I WANT TO BE THERE. My Mom's 95th birthday is next year ..I WANT TO BE THERE.
Any one out there that has been battling cancer feels the same way that I do. You keep pushing and fighting each day. We just have so much to live for.
My Mom at the age of 93.
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Thursday, September 27, 2018
September 27, 2018
I wanted to give you an update on the latest. It has been a very busy week. I was picked up by my friend, Valerie at seven o'clock Monday morning. I hate fighting the morning commuter traffic but knew that we didn't have much choice. We needed to get to get to Walther, Mass. for my brain scan which was scheduled for 9:30. I was happy to know that I would not be drinking that dreadful contrast. As usual, they had a hard time putting in an i.v. My veins are pretty well shot in my right hand and arm. They cant use my left arm because of the lymph nodes that had been removed after my surgery eight years ago. After trying four times, they finally got in my line. The scan took about a half hour. I hate being closed into a machine. I am somewhat claustrophobic. I just close my eyes tight and go to my happy place. Scan completed. Now off to Boston for a pet scan and cat scan of my whole body.
We made pretty good time getting to Mass. General. They even took me a little early. It didn't really matter. Same problem. My veins. I lost my spot because of this. They brought me to a i.v. specialist that had no problem putting in my line. I had to wait a half hour to get my room back. Oh no. Here comes those two bottles of contrast that I needed to drink. I could only get one and a half bottles down; It took about 45 minutes for my full body scan. Very hard, as I had to stay very still. At that point, I ran out of happy places to think of and wished I had taken a pill to help me relax. Mission accomplished. My friend and I could finally head back to New Hampshire. What a long and tiring day.
Tuesday was going to be a quiet day for me.. Guess not. I needed to be at Mass. General on Wednesday for eight o'clock. I was scheduled to see my doctor for my results of my scans and to receive another transfusion. My sister and I finally decided that we probably should get as close to Boston as we could the night before. We called every motel and hotel possible. Everything seemed to be booked and very expensive. I found a place in Framingham. When we arrived there we found that there was a mall nearby. Spent most of the evening shopping. Up the next day and on the road at six for Mass. General. Glad we did. The traffic was terrible.
I was so nervous!!!!! My doctor came into my room and gave me a big smile. Brain scan was good. Will have another one in three months. Body scan was also fine but tumor in my lung still there and a little bigger. What to do!!!! He will get together with his team and also my lung specialist to make a few decisions. My doctor feel that it may be best to remove this tumor or do we go for another clinical trial. We know that it is melanoma and needs to be taken care of.
So...It's another waiting game. My doctor will call me within the next few days and let me know what they feel should be done. I am so relieved knowing that my other scans came back fine.
Keep praying for me my friends! I feel that I am one lucky lady and know that Boston is certainly
Tuesday, September 18, 2018
September, 2017
My sister Becky came down once again to drive me to Boston for my treatment. I had an appointment with my adrenal specialist the next day so we decided to stay the night. I called one of the motels to make reservations and was shocked at what I was asked to pay for a one night stay.
2 king size bed suite $420.00
2 queen size beds $300.00 and something.
It was a long five hour day. My blood work came back fine so my infusion was given. We had parked my car in the parking garage and were planning to take the shuttle to our motel room. My sister felt comfortable driving to the motel and we were there within 15 minutes. We regrouped and decided to head to the Ninety Nine for an appetizer . It was within walking distance.
My sister Becky came down once again to drive me to Boston for my treatment. I had an appointment with my adrenal specialist the next day so we decided to stay the night. I called one of the motels to make reservations and was shocked at what I was asked to pay for a one night stay.
2 king size bed suite $420.00
2 queen size beds $300.00 and something.
The receptionist said they had no other rooms available because of hurricane Florence. I told her that I am a patient at Mass. General and was wondering if she knew of any other place that I could stay at. She hesitated for about 30 seconds and said "Oh....we have just one room left. One king size bed for $110.00. Can you believe that!!!! I said book it!!!!
It was a long five hour day. My blood work came back fine so my infusion was given. We had parked my car in the parking garage and were planning to take the shuttle to our motel room. My sister felt comfortable driving to the motel and we were there within 15 minutes. We regrouped and decided to head to the Ninety Nine for an appetizer . It was within walking distance.
We enjoyed our fried food (Shh!!) and planned on going back to our motel room to settle in for the night and relax. We noticed a shopping mall in the distance. Oh no! The Christmas Tree Shop!!!! We didn't like the area that we were located in but thought we could get back from shopping before dark.by dark. That was not the case. Six shopping bags later, we realized that we had shopped much to long and would be walking back in the dark. Next time I will bring a flash light. Kinda scary!!!
My appointment was at 9:20 the next day for my testing on my adrenal gland. We left the parking lot (after checking out of our motel) at 7:30. We got lost and the traffic was terrible. We just made it to my appointment. The one hour test was done. Waited over an hour to see the doctor then headed home. I LOVE NEW HAMPSHIRE!
Got a call today with the results about my adrenal gland. Not good news. It is not working. Will continue to take my prednisone and will have the test taken again in another six months.
Go back to Boston next Monday for a cat scan and pet scan. It will be a full body scan and they will also do my brain. Will have to go back to Boston that Wednesday to get the results. Just wish I could just have a couple of days to relax and not worry. It is the unknown that scares me!
I will get back to you all and let you know the results. If you don't mind me asking.....could you say a little prayer for me.😊
Wednesday, September 12, 2018
September 12, 2018
Have had a hard time with my blog the last two or three weeks. Finally called my friend to come help me figure out what I was doing wrong. She came over and had it fixed within two minutes. Thank you Christa!!!!
So much has happened! Have been going to Boston every other week to to continue with my infusions. Also, saw a lung specialist to talk about continuing with my treatments as my tumor hasn't really shrunk much in size. Had three different breathing tests to see if I would qualify for lung surgery. I passed.
What I need now is a pet scan to see if my melanoma has returned to my brain or any other parts of my body. This will determine on whether to continue with the clinical trial, go with radiation (radiation would only take 70% of my tumor or I could have the lung surgery and get rid of the tumor altogether. Taking out two thirds of my upper left lung is kinda scary.
Back to Boston tomorrow and will have to spend the night as I have an appointment with my endocrinologist on Friday to determine how bad my adrenal glad is. My sister Becky will drive me down and spend the two days with me. I continue to take four prednisone pills a day to help cortisol a hormone naturally made by my adrenal gland. Will go through a series of tests to see how bad my adrenal gland is.
Cancer certainly has been a battle for me but I continue to remain strong and fight back. I have so much to live for....
Will give you an update at the beginning of next week... So glad I have figured out my computer.
Have had a hard time with my blog the last two or three weeks. Finally called my friend to come help me figure out what I was doing wrong. She came over and had it fixed within two minutes. Thank you Christa!!!!
So much has happened! Have been going to Boston every other week to to continue with my infusions. Also, saw a lung specialist to talk about continuing with my treatments as my tumor hasn't really shrunk much in size. Had three different breathing tests to see if I would qualify for lung surgery. I passed.
What I need now is a pet scan to see if my melanoma has returned to my brain or any other parts of my body. This will determine on whether to continue with the clinical trial, go with radiation (radiation would only take 70% of my tumor or I could have the lung surgery and get rid of the tumor altogether. Taking out two thirds of my upper left lung is kinda scary.
Back to Boston tomorrow and will have to spend the night as I have an appointment with my endocrinologist on Friday to determine how bad my adrenal glad is. My sister Becky will drive me down and spend the two days with me. I continue to take four prednisone pills a day to help cortisol a hormone naturally made by my adrenal gland. Will go through a series of tests to see how bad my adrenal gland is.
Cancer certainly has been a battle for me but I continue to remain strong and fight back. I have so much to live for....
Will give you an update at the beginning of next week... So glad I have figured out my computer.
Wednesday, August 1, 2018
August 1, 2018 Page 2
Off I went to have my cat scan. Oh how I hated being asked to head to the changing room to put on a johnny, a huge pair of men's pajama bottoms and a bathrobe. When am I ever going to learn. It was the zipper in my blue jeans that got me this time. No metal! After putting all of my clothes in a white hospital bag I walking out into the hallway and chose a seat. PLEASE CALL MY NAME! OH NO... Here comes someone out of the changing room and it is a man. I slowly look up and he looked at me with the biggest smile on his face. He said "Can I sit next to you pretty lady." We had a lovely conservation and both realized that we were both there for similar reasons, but his disease was incurable. My scan was completed and after changing back into my regular clothes I found my friend Val waiting patiently for me in the waiting room. Off we went to the Cheese Cake Factory for lunch and then we headed over to Trader Joe's. All the places that I never seem to go to. What a great way to end a day. Thank you my dear friend !
Last night my sister Becky came down to spend the night. After a nice dinner we went for a nice walk with Christa. Almost three miles.Not bad!!!. We got up early this morning and headed for Boston around 7:15. The traffic wasn't as bad as we thought. We took my little car. Becky had no problem weaving in and out of lanes.
We arrived at the hospital and headed to the cafeteria for a quick breakfast. Headed up to seventh floor to have my blood drawn and wait to see my doctor. They seem to be having a hard time with my veins lately. It has been hard to get an i. v. started when they can only use one arm. Dr. Sullivan finally arrived to give me the results f the scan.
1. The scan showed that my tumor grew slightly in size.
2. The infusion that they are giving me is making the
pigment of my normal skin turn white.
Dr. Sullivan says that is somewhat positive on their behalf. The immune therapy is working and
killing off the cancer cells that are attacking my body.
3. We discussed seeing seeing a surgeon and talking about having this tumor removed. Dr. Sullivan would like to do a few more infusions and then have one more scan of my brain and chest.
4. It has been a busy day and I am somewhat disappointed. I am tired of infusions, needles, cat scans, blood work and my trips to Boston. Guess I just need to get to bed and get some rest. My chills have started and I have a slight headache. I should feel better in a few days. Thank you all for being so supportive and following my blog. xxoo
Off I went to have my cat scan. Oh how I hated being asked to head to the changing room to put on a johnny, a huge pair of men's pajama bottoms and a bathrobe. When am I ever going to learn. It was the zipper in my blue jeans that got me this time. No metal! After putting all of my clothes in a white hospital bag I walking out into the hallway and chose a seat. PLEASE CALL MY NAME! OH NO... Here comes someone out of the changing room and it is a man. I slowly look up and he looked at me with the biggest smile on his face. He said "Can I sit next to you pretty lady." We had a lovely conservation and both realized that we were both there for similar reasons, but his disease was incurable. My scan was completed and after changing back into my regular clothes I found my friend Val waiting patiently for me in the waiting room. Off we went to the Cheese Cake Factory for lunch and then we headed over to Trader Joe's. All the places that I never seem to go to. What a great way to end a day. Thank you my dear friend !
Last night my sister Becky came down to spend the night. After a nice dinner we went for a nice walk with Christa. Almost three miles.Not bad!!!. We got up early this morning and headed for Boston around 7:15. The traffic wasn't as bad as we thought. We took my little car. Becky had no problem weaving in and out of lanes.
Had to buy my sister a hat from Mass. General
We arrived at the hospital and headed to the cafeteria for a quick breakfast. Headed up to seventh floor to have my blood drawn and wait to see my doctor. They seem to be having a hard time with my veins lately. It has been hard to get an i. v. started when they can only use one arm. Dr. Sullivan finally arrived to give me the results f the scan.
1. The scan showed that my tumor grew slightly in size.
2. The infusion that they are giving me is making the
pigment of my normal skin turn white.
Dr. Sullivan says that is somewhat positive on their behalf. The immune therapy is working and
killing off the cancer cells that are attacking my body.
3. We discussed seeing seeing a surgeon and talking about having this tumor removed. Dr. Sullivan would like to do a few more infusions and then have one more scan of my brain and chest.
4. It has been a busy day and I am somewhat disappointed. I am tired of infusions, needles, cat scans, blood work and my trips to Boston. Guess I just need to get to bed and get some rest. My chills have started and I have a slight headache. I should feel better in a few days. Thank you all for being so supportive and following my blog. xxoo
August 1, 2018
It has been a busy couple of days. I headed down to Mass General in Waltham Mass. on Monday. Oh how I dreaded drink that contrast once again. My best friend Valerie offered to drive me this time. She can make a bad day come out smelling like a rose. She picked me up early and said "Let's go to the Christmas Tree Shop before your appointment". What a great idea! After spending lots of money....we headed over to imaging building where I would have my scan. Here we go again! Two pages of paper work once again and then the two wonderful drinks that I had to absorbs. I got through almost both of my drinks. I have learned that you have about one hour to drink them both! 😘 I take my time if you get my drift!
READ ON!!
It has been a busy couple of days. I headed down to Mass General in Waltham Mass. on Monday. Oh how I dreaded drink that contrast once again. My best friend Valerie offered to drive me this time. She can make a bad day come out smelling like a rose. She picked me up early and said "Let's go to the Christmas Tree Shop before your appointment". What a great idea! After spending lots of money....we headed over to imaging building where I would have my scan. Here we go again! Two pages of paper work once again and then the two wonderful drinks that I had to absorbs. I got through almost both of my drinks. I have learned that you have about one hour to drink them both! 😘 I take my time if you get my drift!
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Thursday, July 19, 2018
July 19,2018
Hello again! Since I got off that dreadful pill I am doing great. I have been to Boston twice this month. Once on July 6th and my latest infusion which was yesterday. Steve has gone with me these last few times and we have taken the bus. We have finally figured out which "T" to take and how to get to Mass. General. It is was such a long day for both of us. On our way back to the "T" we met a nice elderly couple who were from Concord. Bet you wonder how we met them!! Steve asked them if the "T" that were about to get on was the right one to South Station. They said that they also take the bus to Boston for their doctor's appointments. The women was carrying a pillow and explained that she had back problems. We lost sight of them as they got on the "T". We had just ten minutes to catch the next bus to Concord. We were doing fine but then seemed somewhat lost. I look in front of me and there was the lady with her pillow tucked underneath her arm. With a big smile and confidence I said to Steve "Follow me. I've got this."
I will go to Waltham, Mass. for my cat scan on July 31st. Oh how I dread that day. I hate drinking the two bottles of contrast and I know that I will not choose the flavor banana! UGH... Will have Steve drive me to this appointment as it is located just outside of Boston.
Still having a hard time adjusting to no more driving or riding a bike. Thinking of buying a scooter with front brakes.
Will see Dr Sullivan to have my scan read on August 1st. If this clinical trail is not working he plans to stop it. He says that he has something else up his sleeve.
Trying to remain positive but can be difficult at times. So glad that I have my grand dog Bentley.
Hello again! Since I got off that dreadful pill I am doing great. I have been to Boston twice this month. Once on July 6th and my latest infusion which was yesterday. Steve has gone with me these last few times and we have taken the bus. We have finally figured out which "T" to take and how to get to Mass. General. It is was such a long day for both of us. On our way back to the "T" we met a nice elderly couple who were from Concord. Bet you wonder how we met them!! Steve asked them if the "T" that were about to get on was the right one to South Station. They said that they also take the bus to Boston for their doctor's appointments. The women was carrying a pillow and explained that she had back problems. We lost sight of them as they got on the "T". We had just ten minutes to catch the next bus to Concord. We were doing fine but then seemed somewhat lost. I look in front of me and there was the lady with her pillow tucked underneath her arm. With a big smile and confidence I said to Steve "Follow me. I've got this."
I will go to Waltham, Mass. for my cat scan on July 31st. Oh how I dread that day. I hate drinking the two bottles of contrast and I know that I will not choose the flavor banana! UGH... Will have Steve drive me to this appointment as it is located just outside of Boston.
Still having a hard time adjusting to no more driving or riding a bike. Thinking of buying a scooter with front brakes.
Will see Dr Sullivan to have my scan read on August 1st. If this clinical trail is not working he plans to stop it. He says that he has something else up his sleeve.
Trying to remain positive but can be difficult at times. So glad that I have my grand dog Bentley.
Tuesday, June 26, 2018
June 26, 2018
Where has the time gone! I continue to go to Boston for treatments but there have been a few changes.
I took the bus down to Boston with my son Matthew last Friday to talk with my doctor and to have another transfusion. I have been off the pills that put me into the hospital three times. I was so afraid that the doctor was going to stop my clinical trial.
The doctor gave me three choices.
1. Continue with pills and infusion but cutting the dose of the pills down to 20 mg.
2. Continue with just the infusion and see if it shrinks my tumors.
3. Stop the Clinical Trial all together.
The doctor told me that my adrenal gland was still not working and putting me back on the pills could put me back into septic shock once again! We made the decision without much difficulty. Going with just the infusion and see if it will help shrink my tumor. Will see an adrenal specialist this Thursday. Another trip to Boston but an important one.
Sold my brand new bike last week. That was a tough one for me. I am having Future in Sight come by and giving me a few ideas to help me with my vision. They feel that I need a walking cane. EEKS! That is a hard one for me. I will have someone walk with me that is on my right side. I have walked by myself a couple of time and am very careful.
So many changes.... I have decided that I need something to work for and keep me in a positive frame of mind. I plan to sign up for the Bill Luti race that is in July. Thinking that I have someone that will stay on my right side that day. I know that I will be walking some of way. Just want to make it to the finish line!
I promise to try harder to keep up with my blog!
Christa and I are walking once again! I am feeling so much better now that I am off that pill! Just hope the infusion works!!!!
Saturday, June 9, 2018
June 8, 2018
Made it to Waltham on Monday to have my chest x-ray. Chose Vanilla and berry drink this time It took me an close to an hour to drink them both. UGH! I did crosswords with my friend Valerie. If I can't answer the question I have to take a big chug. X-ray completed and now to worry about the results
My sister, Becky came down from up north on Wednesdays to drive me to Boston on the following day. We have a schedule and list of people who have offered to help get me to Boston for my treatments. It was her turn. My appointment was for 11:00 a.m. We left at 8:30. Glad we did . There was an accident and it took us two hours to get to Mass. General.
Labs completed....came back okay. Dr Sullivan next. I was brought back to one of the examining rooms where I waited with sweaty palms and nervous stomach. HERE HE COMES!!! Why does he look so serious????
The test came back in our favor. The two tumors have shrunk in size. Not much but have shrunk.. Wait a minute! Two tumors? I forgot about the kidney size bean tumor on the outer lining of my stomach. I HATE MELANOMA!!! I fought back my tears and tried to pulled it together. Adrenal gland has shut down totally. What do we do now??? The doctor blames my two septic shocks on the pills that I were taking daily and has decided to just do the infusions every two weeks.
We had to wait until 3:30 for my infusion. Never left Boston until 5:30. This infusion makes me feel tired and yucky for a couple of days. Will see an adrenal specialist at the end of the month .
I am hanging in there but this certainly been a tough couple of months. Keep remembering how blessed I am to have my family and friends who have supported me. Couldn't get through this without you! xxoo
Made it to Waltham on Monday to have my chest x-ray. Chose Vanilla and berry drink this time It took me an close to an hour to drink them both. UGH! I did crosswords with my friend Valerie. If I can't answer the question I have to take a big chug. X-ray completed and now to worry about the results
My sister, Becky came down from up north on Wednesdays to drive me to Boston on the following day. We have a schedule and list of people who have offered to help get me to Boston for my treatments. It was her turn. My appointment was for 11:00 a.m. We left at 8:30. Glad we did . There was an accident and it took us two hours to get to Mass. General.
Labs completed....came back okay. Dr Sullivan next. I was brought back to one of the examining rooms where I waited with sweaty palms and nervous stomach. HERE HE COMES!!! Why does he look so serious????
The test came back in our favor. The two tumors have shrunk in size. Not much but have shrunk.. Wait a minute! Two tumors? I forgot about the kidney size bean tumor on the outer lining of my stomach. I HATE MELANOMA!!! I fought back my tears and tried to pulled it together. Adrenal gland has shut down totally. What do we do now??? The doctor blames my two septic shocks on the pills that I were taking daily and has decided to just do the infusions every two weeks.
We had to wait until 3:30 for my infusion. Never left Boston until 5:30. This infusion makes me feel tired and yucky for a couple of days. Will see an adrenal specialist at the end of the month .
I am hanging in there but this certainly been a tough couple of months. Keep remembering how blessed I am to have my family and friends who have supported me. Couldn't get through this without you! xxoo
Monday, June 4, 2018
June 5,2018
I thought I would try and catch you up to date. It has been a really tough couple of weeks for me. I was doing so well on the clinical trial and now things are not so great. As you all know, I went into septic shock a month or so ago and ended up in Boston for a week. Blood pressure dropped and organs starting to shut down. They thought that I had pneumonia I was dehydrated and very very sick. My b/p dropped significantly low. They were able to give me high doses of prednizone to slowly rise the blood pressure. Had every test in the book down they found nothing other than a rash on my chest. Determined that this was from my clinical trial. Also, they found that my adrenal glad was not working which would lower the blood pressure. Went home, they reduced my dose of pills that I took daily for the trial and things were going well.
Last Thursday I started to get the chills and run a low grade fever of 99. I brushed it off until V.N.A. came in that afternoon. B/P extremely low. The nurse called the doctor on call at Mass. General and off I went to Boston. Thank goodness I have such good friends that will just drop everything and take me. Thank you Vanessa and Virene! Got to the emergency room and was admitted to be examined. Chest xray done...negative blood work done....fine urine checked....fine. They couldn't find anything wrong so they sent me home, HMMMM!
Woke up the next morning with a temp of 100.5. Took two ibuprofen and blew it off. Still felt kinda punky. Went to bed that nigh and woke up around 1:30 a.m.. Shaking and trembling. Called Steve for help. Temp now 103. Rushed to Emergency Room. B/p 66/44... Back into septic shock. Could not get blood pressure to go up. They tried everything. Finally inserted a line in my juggler vein to get medicine working quickly. I.C.U. for two days and in hospital for one week. All kinds of tests done,,,,found nothing, Still pumped with antibiotics all week long.It was nice that Boston and Concord Hospital conferred back and forth. Thinking clinical trial........This is the chance that I took and I think anyone would try one to fight off their cancer.
WAIT......THERE IS MORE.. Released from hospital last Friday.. So great to be home. Went to bed that night and woke up with an excruciating headache. Took my b/p but it kept reading "EE" for the systolic (top number) Thought it was broken. Guess I didn't pump it up enough. Took a baby aspirin, put a cold compress on my forehead and went back to bed. Woke up at 6 and knew I needed to get to a doctor. Back to the Emergency Room . Blood Pressure 197/110...was admitted for 2 days to try and regulate my blood pressure. Home now and monitoring it myself. Trying to remain positive but getting discouraged.
Off to Waltham, Mass tomorrow to drink some gross stuff so they can do an xray of my chest. Boston on Thursday to see my oncologist to go over results and decide what to do next...Will see if this trial has taken more of my tumor. Got some big decisions to make.
Will stay in touch!!!!!! Pray ! Pray! Pray!
I thought I would try and catch you up to date. It has been a really tough couple of weeks for me. I was doing so well on the clinical trial and now things are not so great. As you all know, I went into septic shock a month or so ago and ended up in Boston for a week. Blood pressure dropped and organs starting to shut down. They thought that I had pneumonia I was dehydrated and very very sick. My b/p dropped significantly low. They were able to give me high doses of prednizone to slowly rise the blood pressure. Had every test in the book down they found nothing other than a rash on my chest. Determined that this was from my clinical trial. Also, they found that my adrenal glad was not working which would lower the blood pressure. Went home, they reduced my dose of pills that I took daily for the trial and things were going well.
Last Thursday I started to get the chills and run a low grade fever of 99. I brushed it off until V.N.A. came in that afternoon. B/P extremely low. The nurse called the doctor on call at Mass. General and off I went to Boston. Thank goodness I have such good friends that will just drop everything and take me. Thank you Vanessa and Virene! Got to the emergency room and was admitted to be examined. Chest xray done...negative blood work done....fine urine checked....fine. They couldn't find anything wrong so they sent me home, HMMMM!
Woke up the next morning with a temp of 100.5. Took two ibuprofen and blew it off. Still felt kinda punky. Went to bed that nigh and woke up around 1:30 a.m.. Shaking and trembling. Called Steve for help. Temp now 103. Rushed to Emergency Room. B/p 66/44... Back into septic shock. Could not get blood pressure to go up. They tried everything. Finally inserted a line in my juggler vein to get medicine working quickly. I.C.U. for two days and in hospital for one week. All kinds of tests done,,,,found nothing, Still pumped with antibiotics all week long.It was nice that Boston and Concord Hospital conferred back and forth. Thinking clinical trial........This is the chance that I took and I think anyone would try one to fight off their cancer.
WAIT......THERE IS MORE.. Released from hospital last Friday.. So great to be home. Went to bed that night and woke up with an excruciating headache. Took my b/p but it kept reading "EE" for the systolic (top number) Thought it was broken. Guess I didn't pump it up enough. Took a baby aspirin, put a cold compress on my forehead and went back to bed. Woke up at 6 and knew I needed to get to a doctor. Back to the Emergency Room . Blood Pressure 197/110...was admitted for 2 days to try and regulate my blood pressure. Home now and monitoring it myself. Trying to remain positive but getting discouraged.
Off to Waltham, Mass tomorrow to drink some gross stuff so they can do an xray of my chest. Boston on Thursday to see my oncologist to go over results and decide what to do next...Will see if this trial has taken more of my tumor. Got some big decisions to make.
Will stay in touch!!!!!! Pray ! Pray! Pray!
Tuesday, May 22, 2018
April 22, 2018
Tuesday
Chris and I took the 5 o'clock bust to Boston. He picked me up at 4 o'clock so we could run through Dunkin Donuts. Arrived in Boston a little after six. Lots of walking to get to the red line Three stops and we arrived at Mass General. Blood work done and ready for infusion. WAITED A LONG TIME!!!! Dr. Sullivan came in and told me that my liver count was elevated and that they were going to hold off with the infusion. Disappointed but knew that it was the right thing to do. Took my pill that I take everyday (it opens up the cells in my body to kills off the cancer that may be floating around. Off we went to catch the bus to go home
I have got to admit that it was fun being with my son and I actually enjoyed seeing some of the sights of Boston.
Went camping last weekend with friends. Good change and I continue to walk daily. I got up early and walk the beach alone... So peaceful and relaxing. Brought my camera! Still trying to focus with my right eye. Will take some practice and time!
Had my blood work done at the Clinic in Concord yesterday and I got a call from Boston today. Liver counts are much better. Head to Waltham Mass next Tuesday to drink two bottles of YUCKY stuff and then a cat scan of my neck, chest, abdomen and pelvis. Boston next Wednesday to see Dr.Sullivan to hear the results of the scan and then another infusion. I am a little nervous to hear the results. It has been a difficult couple of months but I continue to remain positive. It has been the cards, phone calls, visits and support from all of you that keep me going. THANK YOU SO MUCH
Walked 2 miles today and 2 miles yesterday with Christa.
I know I missed a few weeks of walking when I was so sick but will make them up.
Rock and Race
Tuesday
Chris and I took the 5 o'clock bust to Boston. He picked me up at 4 o'clock so we could run through Dunkin Donuts. Arrived in Boston a little after six. Lots of walking to get to the red line Three stops and we arrived at Mass General. Blood work done and ready for infusion. WAITED A LONG TIME!!!! Dr. Sullivan came in and told me that my liver count was elevated and that they were going to hold off with the infusion. Disappointed but knew that it was the right thing to do. Took my pill that I take everyday (it opens up the cells in my body to kills off the cancer that may be floating around. Off we went to catch the bus to go home
I have got to admit that it was fun being with my son and I actually enjoyed seeing some of the sights of Boston.
Went camping last weekend with friends. Good change and I continue to walk daily. I got up early and walk the beach alone... So peaceful and relaxing. Brought my camera! Still trying to focus with my right eye. Will take some practice and time!
Had my blood work done at the Clinic in Concord yesterday and I got a call from Boston today. Liver counts are much better. Head to Waltham Mass next Tuesday to drink two bottles of YUCKY stuff and then a cat scan of my neck, chest, abdomen and pelvis. Boston next Wednesday to see Dr.Sullivan to hear the results of the scan and then another infusion. I am a little nervous to hear the results. It has been a difficult couple of months but I continue to remain positive. It has been the cards, phone calls, visits and support from all of you that keep me going. THANK YOU SO MUCH
Walked 2 miles today and 2 miles yesterday with Christa.
I know I missed a few weeks of walking when I was so sick but will make them up.
Lisa, Maya and Andy!
Hopes that I can run or walk it next year. Will stay in touch! xxoo
Tuesday, May 15, 2018
5-13-18
Tuesday night
Hello my dear friends! After coming home from the hospital I had one week to recover at home before going back down to Mass General to talk about continuing with my trial.We needed to cut back the dose as it was too strong for me to tolerate. I was still recovering from my stay in the hospital but decided to continue with the trial. Within two weeks it had taken 20% of my tumor.
Was there for 8 1/2 hours that day with my friend Sandy. Blood work, infusion and lots and lots more blood work drawn.(also continue to take my daily pill and keep a daily log. Spent the night in Boston as I had to return for one more set of blood work at 8:00.
The treatment seems to be working. Still have V.N.A. coming once a week. They are a little concerned about my weight. I have started to eat better these last couple of days and have put on a couple of pounds. Loosing 25 lbs wasn't any fun.
Have started walking with Christa once again. Walked yesterday and today. We also have been riding scooters! I felt kinda down one day and said "If I can;t drive anymore and can't ride a bike then I will find another way that I can get around. SO BE I
Off to Boston tomorrow for another treatment! Chris (my son is going with me this time! He chose to take the bus! Picking me up at 4 a.m.
So glad to have some energy once again. Thanks to my sister Becky and my friend Val for rushing me down to Boston 3 weeks ago. It sure was a close call! Don't really remember much that day! Will have Christa put a few photos of us on the blog tomorrow. Having a hard time loading them!
Thanks again for all of you who have been following our blog! It is good to be back!
Tuesday night
Hello my dear friends! After coming home from the hospital I had one week to recover at home before going back down to Mass General to talk about continuing with my trial.We needed to cut back the dose as it was too strong for me to tolerate. I was still recovering from my stay in the hospital but decided to continue with the trial. Within two weeks it had taken 20% of my tumor.
Was there for 8 1/2 hours that day with my friend Sandy. Blood work, infusion and lots and lots more blood work drawn.(also continue to take my daily pill and keep a daily log. Spent the night in Boston as I had to return for one more set of blood work at 8:00.
The treatment seems to be working. Still have V.N.A. coming once a week. They are a little concerned about my weight. I have started to eat better these last couple of days and have put on a couple of pounds. Loosing 25 lbs wasn't any fun.
Have started walking with Christa once again. Walked yesterday and today. We also have been riding scooters! I felt kinda down one day and said "If I can;t drive anymore and can't ride a bike then I will find another way that I can get around. SO BE I
Off to Boston tomorrow for another treatment! Chris (my son is going with me this time! He chose to take the bus! Picking me up at 4 a.m.
Thanks again for all of you who have been following our blog! It is good to be back!
Monday, April 30, 2018
Update on Bonnie
Hello hello! I have to appologize for not updating everyone. It was a busy week!
Last Tuesday Andy, the kids and I made a trip to surprise Bonnie in Boston. We decided to go to the New England Aquarium and then stop in to see Bonnie. As we were leaving the aquarium we got a call from Matt (Bonnie's son) telling us that Bonnie was being discharged. We headed straight over and went through the discharge process with her.
She slept the whole way home and Steve and Becky were anxiously waiting for her and tucked her straight into bed. We are so happy to have her back home!
We didn't really get too many answers from the many doctors that we saw. Her discharge papers confirmed what we suspected and that was that Bonnie was in septic shock when she arrived at the hospital.
Bonnie seems to be a little better but is still not feeling well. I don't believe she has had any fevers and her blood pressure has been within normal limits so I think it is just a wait to see how she feels over time. Her oncologist would like to continue with treatments and plans on starting her infusions again this Wednesday.
Fingers crossed that she feels better soon.
Last Tuesday Andy, the kids and I made a trip to surprise Bonnie in Boston. We decided to go to the New England Aquarium and then stop in to see Bonnie. As we were leaving the aquarium we got a call from Matt (Bonnie's son) telling us that Bonnie was being discharged. We headed straight over and went through the discharge process with her.
She slept the whole way home and Steve and Becky were anxiously waiting for her and tucked her straight into bed. We are so happy to have her back home!
We didn't really get too many answers from the many doctors that we saw. Her discharge papers confirmed what we suspected and that was that Bonnie was in septic shock when she arrived at the hospital.
Bonnie seems to be a little better but is still not feeling well. I don't believe she has had any fevers and her blood pressure has been within normal limits so I think it is just a wait to see how she feels over time. Her oncologist would like to continue with treatments and plans on starting her infusions again this Wednesday.
Fingers crossed that she feels better soon.
Saturday, April 21, 2018
Good Morning. I am finally rested after a long day yesterday. Boy that hospital is huge! So many people bustling around in every direction. All I can relate it to is Boston airport.
Bonnie is on the 20th floor. That elevator ride was quite a ride I tell you. Most of you know I am very afraid of heights! Yikes! Her view is quite impressive from her room. We were able to see duck boats, sailboats, airplanes, helicopters, skyscrapers, a park, the citgo sign and so much more. This is just a small glimpse of what we could see from her room.
I was able to speak with so many doctors and give them all the info I could on Bonnie. Since I have walked with her everyday I have watched her health slowly decline. Lots of pieces to this puzzle that the doctors are trying to piece together. They still don't have any answers for us. Could it be an infection? Full body inflammation? An underlying condition? Side effects from the trial? Something else? Some say infection could still be possible despite the fact that they cannot find it. She is still being treated with antibiotics because her symptoms were so severe and she presented as if she had a very very bad infection. Some doctors say she has a small amount of pneumonia some say she doesn't.
Most tests have come back pretty normal. Her abdominal ultrasound showed a slight increase in size of her heart. Blood work showed only a slight increase in inflammation but it is a very sensitive test. We haven't gotten the results of the EKG yet.
So basically Bonnie is making them work pretty hard to figure out what the heck is going on. One doctor told me they have seen this before with this trial that she is on. She must have at least 5 specialists working with her.
When I was there yesterday she seemed to get a little stronger as the day went on. Her blood sugar was pretty low but she hasn't eaten much. We were able to get a little ginger ale into her and half of a grape popsicle. She seemed to perk up a little after that.
Towards the end of the day she was itching to get out for a walk. We did a loop around the floor. It was good to see her looking a little bit stronger. She was even joking around which made us pretty happy!
Bonnie is on the 20th floor. That elevator ride was quite a ride I tell you. Most of you know I am very afraid of heights! Yikes! Her view is quite impressive from her room. We were able to see duck boats, sailboats, airplanes, helicopters, skyscrapers, a park, the citgo sign and so much more. This is just a small glimpse of what we could see from her room.
I was able to speak with so many doctors and give them all the info I could on Bonnie. Since I have walked with her everyday I have watched her health slowly decline. Lots of pieces to this puzzle that the doctors are trying to piece together. They still don't have any answers for us. Could it be an infection? Full body inflammation? An underlying condition? Side effects from the trial? Something else? Some say infection could still be possible despite the fact that they cannot find it. She is still being treated with antibiotics because her symptoms were so severe and she presented as if she had a very very bad infection. Some doctors say she has a small amount of pneumonia some say she doesn't.
Most tests have come back pretty normal. Her abdominal ultrasound showed a slight increase in size of her heart. Blood work showed only a slight increase in inflammation but it is a very sensitive test. We haven't gotten the results of the EKG yet.
So basically Bonnie is making them work pretty hard to figure out what the heck is going on. One doctor told me they have seen this before with this trial that she is on. She must have at least 5 specialists working with her.
When I was there yesterday she seemed to get a little stronger as the day went on. Her blood sugar was pretty low but she hasn't eaten much. We were able to get a little ginger ale into her and half of a grape popsicle. She seemed to perk up a little after that.
Towards the end of the day she was itching to get out for a walk. We did a loop around the floor. It was good to see her looking a little bit stronger. She was even joking around which made us pretty happy!
Becky caught this cute picture of us doing our walk.
Bonnie is a tough one! She will get better soon.
xo
Christa
Friday, April 20, 2018
In Boston with Bonnie. We met with one of the oncologists and I was able to ask a lot of questions. They are having a hard time finding a source of infection. She may not have an infection but they are afraid to take her off antibiotics just yet. I asked if she was having a full body inflammatory response and she said yes. They have seen this before with this trial. They are still trying hard to figure out exactly what is going on. They are treating the fever and low blood pressure and hoping this will run its course. Her tumors have shrunk 20% . She is having an ecg and ultrasound right now. I asked her prognosis and she will be here for a while but the doctor was optimistic that she will get through this.
Will keep you all posted!
Christa
Will keep you all posted!
Christa
Thursday, April 19, 2018
Update on Bonnie
Hi everyone. It is Christa checking in again. I know how important this blog is to Bonnie and how hard she has tried to keep up with it. It has been a struggle for her to keep up with it over the last few weeks. She has asked me to update people so that is what I will do.
On Tuesday April 17 my mom and Bonnie's sister Becky rushed Bonnie to Massachusettes General Hospital due to a continuous high fever, extreme lethargy and because she was just so very sick. They had a tough ride to Boston in which my mom held Bonnie on her lap and Becky drove so fast that they got pulled over and were escorted by the NH State Police then Mass State Police to the hospital. We are grateful that they got to Boston when they did because Bonnie was going into septic shock with a severe infection that was taking over her body. She had dangerously low blood pressure and was instantly transferred from the cancer center to the ER in order to stabilize her. We are so grateful that Virene had noticed her fever on Saturday and spoke with Mass General hospital making them aware of what was going on. Grateful for Becky for rushing right down to Concord to stay with Bonnie and grateful my mom (Bonnie's BFF Valerie) had a feeling she should check on Bonnie that morning. They all saved her life.
She is now stabilized and is in her own room at the hospital. She has had many tests and they are trying hard to determine what exactly is going on. It is believed that their is an underlying condition that is not due to the medications of the trial. We are hoping for more test results today. She has had a bad rash that they will be removing a small amount of skin to biopsy. She still has a sense of humor despite how lethargic and uncomfortable she is. Yesterday Becky told her that their was a cute doctor in the ER and she tried to sit up and said "WHERE?" hehe thats the Bonnie we know and love! She was also acting silly with my mom and was peeking through the bars of the hospital bed and smiling at her.
Yesterday her oncologist told her some good news that her lung tumors have shrunk just after one treatment of this trial. They do not believe that this medication has anything to do with her illness so when she is better they will continue with the trial.
She has had lots of family and friend support while she is in Boston and she is in very good hands. We thank you all for your love and support during this really scarey time.
Please send love, light, thoughts and prayers to Bonnie.
Also, please if you are reading this leave comments for Bonnie below. Bonnie loves them and I can read them to her. She will know that you are following along and that you care. Just click on the word comments below!
I promise to update again soon.
Christa
On Tuesday April 17 my mom and Bonnie's sister Becky rushed Bonnie to Massachusettes General Hospital due to a continuous high fever, extreme lethargy and because she was just so very sick. They had a tough ride to Boston in which my mom held Bonnie on her lap and Becky drove so fast that they got pulled over and were escorted by the NH State Police then Mass State Police to the hospital. We are grateful that they got to Boston when they did because Bonnie was going into septic shock with a severe infection that was taking over her body. She had dangerously low blood pressure and was instantly transferred from the cancer center to the ER in order to stabilize her. We are so grateful that Virene had noticed her fever on Saturday and spoke with Mass General hospital making them aware of what was going on. Grateful for Becky for rushing right down to Concord to stay with Bonnie and grateful my mom (Bonnie's BFF Valerie) had a feeling she should check on Bonnie that morning. They all saved her life.
She is now stabilized and is in her own room at the hospital. She has had many tests and they are trying hard to determine what exactly is going on. It is believed that their is an underlying condition that is not due to the medications of the trial. We are hoping for more test results today. She has had a bad rash that they will be removing a small amount of skin to biopsy. She still has a sense of humor despite how lethargic and uncomfortable she is. Yesterday Becky told her that their was a cute doctor in the ER and she tried to sit up and said "WHERE?" hehe thats the Bonnie we know and love! She was also acting silly with my mom and was peeking through the bars of the hospital bed and smiling at her.
Yesterday her oncologist told her some good news that her lung tumors have shrunk just after one treatment of this trial. They do not believe that this medication has anything to do with her illness so when she is better they will continue with the trial.
She has had lots of family and friend support while she is in Boston and she is in very good hands. We thank you all for your love and support during this really scarey time.
Please send love, light, thoughts and prayers to Bonnie.
Also, please if you are reading this leave comments for Bonnie below. Bonnie loves them and I can read them to her. She will know that you are following along and that you care. Just click on the word comments below!
I promise to update again soon.
Christa
Monday, April 16, 2018
Hello! It is Christa posting for Bonnie today. It is Marathon monday. What a cold, rainy day for a marathon.
Bonnie and I continued to walk everyday up until last Thursday. It was a really difficult day for Bonnie and we made it a very short walk. Unfortunatly, Bonnie is having some pretty bad side effects from her treatments. She has had a fever for the past few days with lots of joint pain and pretty bad exhaustion. Her sister Becky is with her until her next appointment on Wednesday.
We will be back to walking as soon as Bonnie feels a little better. We will keep you posted!
Bonnie and I continued to walk everyday up until last Thursday. It was a really difficult day for Bonnie and we made it a very short walk. Unfortunatly, Bonnie is having some pretty bad side effects from her treatments. She has had a fever for the past few days with lots of joint pain and pretty bad exhaustion. Her sister Becky is with her until her next appointment on Wednesday.
We will be back to walking as soon as Bonnie feels a little better. We will keep you posted!
Thursday, April 12, 2018
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